My day honestly started out amazing. Though my business has been stagnant and I’ve been struggling with anxiety lately I summoned the energy to have a great day and get back on track. Trying to be proactive while taking my dog out I listened to my favorite podcast (thank you Ryan McKane), The School of Greatness with Lewis Howes and he was interviewing musician Andy Grammer.
I thought I was going to maybe learn some tips about life but didn’t have high expectations as I had no idea who Andy Grammer was. Come to find out, Andy Grammer is a popular musician who struggled for four years as a street performer in California before making it big. It gave me so much inspiration. I was empowered, motivated and having the best day in months. I listened to his song “Keep Your Head Up” all day basically on repeat. It was a source of inspiration and energy to pick myself up, take action and stop thinking negatively.
I e-mailed business consultants to help create a business strategy, created social media posts, read new books, listened to other podcasts, and did 10% of a workbook to help me grow my business. I was on top of the world and feeling better than I had in months. I was empowered and excited. #WINNING!
Fast forward four hours later, post immense happy productivity my day concluded with a call from the fertility doctors office about my newest blood work results. I found out I had elevated thyroids aka hypothyroidism and also found out my AMH went from .87 to .57 in a single year which basically means menopause is on a fast track to get to me. After she gave me the results she explained that my chances of IVF success were not very high and that donor eggs our plans if we want a baby.
Talk about devastating. I bawled. I calmed down. I cried more.
I cried until I realized that focusing on the negative (my business not where I want it to be and my infertility) was not going to help me. I gave myself permission to cry and feel all the feels but then adopted to have an attitude that served how I wanted to feel. I intentionally chose my mindset.
I wanted to feel optimistic, positive and believe that we could defeat the odds. Why focus on the crappy statistics and dwell on what you don’t or potentially can’t have now instead of focusing on what you do have?
Mindset + Gratitude = Jenn’s Happy Place
My point to this story is that we can have the best days and the worst days but we get to choose how they impact us. We get to choose how we want to feel and the next thought and action that we want to take and have. It’s a beautiful thing that we can control our happiness.
Though this next journey isn’t ideal and obviously unplanned I hope that I can inspire you to persevere through life’s difficulties. To know that when life throws you a wrench it doesn’t mean to give up, it means to keep going the best that we can.
And to quote Andy Grammer in his inspiring song “Keep Your Head Up”, “You’ve gotta keep your head up, ohhh so you can let your hair down.”
Keep Your Head Up! Keep going. You are stronger than you think.